I'm going to start blogging again. I blogged like crazy in 2007-2009 and then life threw some stuff at me that caused me to stall. There I've been, sitting idly, waiting for things, life to feel normal again.
It still doesn't.
But I must start some kind of forward motion because I'm honestly sick of the scenery where I sit. So, where am I going? Well...
In the immediate future - nowhere fast. I'm still contemplating going back to school but it won't be until next year.
I've just been lost since September 2009. I'm stuck in a dead-end job making shit for money and the kicker is, I'm not particularly eager to leave. I really enjoy my job and my coworkers but the reality is, I should & could be doing much more. The job was only supposed to be temporary until our son was born...then I was going to be a stay-at-home mom AND do some work at home for the dealership. Then, everything went away.
There has been no forward motion. A numb that comes with time masks grief but I wonder what damage it continues to do under the surface.
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This blog was not supposed to be like this. I want to start fresh and talk about something other than:
-Anxiety
-Depression
-Miscarriage
And yet, I find it difficult to find much else inside here. Where have I gone?
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